5th March 2026
Dear precious angel,
Just day before Holi, I made a video call to my aunt to have a short chit chat with my little baby sister, Riya. While having fun conversation with her, she was saying that she would rub strong colors on my cheeks that would never fade away but little did that little girl know her elder most brother was never going to celebrate Holi this time. Little did she know that my Holi has become colorless since last Holi, 2025. No any color will ever able to give my heart the color and texture I had before. You should have someone with whom you can make each day as colorful as Holi but unfortunately and miserably I no longer have that person with whom I can make my every single day and night as colorful as Holi. I feel like I have been badly cursed by someone to keep me locked in dark & gloomy room without any rays of sunlight. Well, I don’t like Holi festival as I feel it stupid & lazy to dirt our skin & hair first with those colors and then again wash ourselves to clean that intentionally made dirt. But still, I feel I could make my Holi special with the person I consider to be my color. No color can ever make your soul colorful when you no longer have the person who was your color. I have to remain colorless because I have lost my color of my life. I hope one day some mysterious force of this universe will bring that color into my life again & I will get to make my every single day & night as colorful as before or somewhat better. Though I am staying colorless, I shouldn’t lose hope of being colorful like that little Jewish girl of just 13yrs old didn’t lose hope of getting colorful life again while hiding from Nazi’s in secret annex in a building for as long as 2 years. Imagine, when a little girl of just 13years old didn’t lose hope in such a difficult situation when Hitler was doing mass execution of Jews then how can I can lose hope when my situation is not physically and mentally as terrible as her? My eyes are shedding tears and may these tears act as a colorful spray in your soul to wish you a very happy Holi, my precious angel.
Your gem, Vivek Prasad
